Silver Lining

 Every Cloud has a silver lining it is said. I am making several conscious changes in my life and yet to figure out how it will impact me in future. Like Hareesha said - We cannot make choices afraid that something may not go right in future. We dont know future and we should go with what we like. I am making conscious decision to be less active on whatsapp groups - It is taking too much time and energy out of me. And the pressure of responding is also getting high. I am finding it more peaceful to be just away from all this. Like discovering myself anew. Finding joy in things I didnt notice earlier. I think its a good welcome change. I hope to keep it up. The flip side is I may not have many avenues to share my thoughts - and for now that is working out well because I am able to think for myself. It may be difficult if I want to share some pics of myself or sahasra and dont have any place to share it. But the alternate seems like going through awful lot of trouble to have that option. 

I can always post on my instagram feed or have an active blog where I can share. Anyhow more often than not people are so busy in their lives that you cant expect immediate or genuine response. Its better to have direct conversations with people who you want to be in touch with. Like it used to be earlier before all this whatsapp groups started.

Also, I want to find a more compatible group for myself. I dont have any time now. It could be running, reading books or food - something that the group can associate with.

Its interesting how your entire life you have been a certain way and never stopped and thought about whether that is the best way to be. We are driven by our personalities and habits. And unless there is a trigger, habits and personalities do not change.

Feeling super tired and sleepy - thanks to pregnancy harmones and lack of sleep and constant hunger.